Dear Qeela

because you wrote about me.. so, this is my reply. (=
  i won't say anything about that pakcik. but i happy that you can make him happy while i'm not. then, im not too eager to know who that person. but i still want to know who that lucky person. even if the person is pakcik it does not bother me. i will be happy for you two. remember that women are easy to fall for man who are being nice to them. so if we are fall for them, they will ask us why and never realized that actually because of them being nice with us, we fall for them. they won't blame themselves but we will be blamed.
*sorry i wrote in English* okay take care ya. see you soon. Assalamualaikum. (^^,)v

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah segalanya telah berakhir. walaupun aku tak usaha sungguh2 untuk exam kali nie. tapi aku berjaya menempuh jugak exam2 nie. mugkin sebab berlaku perkara2 yang agak memilukan sepanjang semester nie. so, tumpuan study aku agak dan amat terganggu sedikit. aku tak nak salahkan siapa2 tapi hanya mampu menyalahkan diri sendiri yang tak dapat mengawal emosi. dengan berakhirnya exam tadi aku harap segala masalah yang berlaku sepanjang sem ni akan dilupakan. insyaallah segala apa yang berlaku antara aku dan dia juga dapat aku lupakan. kalau benar dia untuk aku pasti akan bersama juak. kalau bukan ertinya kena cari orang lain la. haha. hye dear, i'm sorry not replying your email. it is not that i hate you or mad at you. i just want to forget you. hope you understand. (=

andai ku bercinta lagi

perghh tajuk nak gempak je. haha. btw, aku suka sangat lagu nie. ANDAI KU BERCINTA LAGI. bila? entahlah aku pun tak tahu. sekarang nie malas nak fikir. memang lah orang kata setiap manusia dijadikan berpasangan. tapi kalau dok melangut je kat rumah mana nak jumpa kan. erm..yeke. okay lah. sekarang nie kan aku belajar lagi. tapi umur aku dah menunjukkan bahawa aku boleh berkahwin. haha. okay. aku tak nak bercinta lama2. takut nanti basi. apa beza cinta dengan suka. cinta tak perlu sebab tapi kalau kita suka mesti bersebab kan. kadang2 kita rasa kita cinta seseorang. tapi pernah tak kita tanya balik kenapa kita cinta kat dia. kalau ada jawapan, itu ertinya kita cuma suka kat dia. bukan cinta. bagi orang yang memang tak ada pengalaman macam aku nie. tak pernah tau apa erti cinta. yang aku tau aku suka je. tapi dengan dia nie aku jatuh cinta dengan dia. ya. mula2 aku suka. lama2 jadi cinta pulak. oke. aku dah geli nak tulis post nie. aku cuma nak bagitahu yang AKU CINTA DIA. kenapa? sebab aku memang dah jatuh CINTA dekat dia. I'M IN LOVE WITH HIM without reasons. (=

wasting time

only not more than 24hours left for me. the next paper. but i'm still have not done yet reading the topics. uhuhu. so many. but still i have to read it no matter what. on tuesday, business law paper. another one paper that gonna kill me. there are so many cases, acts that need to remember. and i just remember only one chapter. nevermind, i have to concentrate for my tomorrow paper. then, i continue for Tuesday paper. Y__Y wish me luck okay. till he i wrote. annyong~ (=

Hanya PadaMu Tempat ku mengadu

YaAllah sesungguhnya aku amat merindukan dia. Aku rindukan saat2 kami masih bersama. Walaupun kami hanya menjadi rapat dalam tempoh masa yang singkat. Terlalu banyak memori kami. YaAllah, kenapa dia hadir dalam hidupku. mungkin untuk menjadi peneman di saat aku keseorangan. sekarang aku menjadi keseorangan kembali. semuanya gara2 aku. Aku tersalah anggap kebaikan yang dia tunjukkan kat aku selama ini. Aku tahu dia tidak suka aku berperasaan begitu. tapi apa kan daya aku hanya wanita yang lemah dan tunduk dengan nafsu untuk menyayangi seorang lelaki. aku tahu salah. tapi aku masih mengikut nafsu. Akibatnya, kini kami sudah tidak bertegur sapa. hanya jika ada urusan yang penting. sumpah aku rindu dia. Tapi kini aku cuba untuk menerima hakikat bahawa dia takkan melihat aku sebagai lebih daripada seorang kawan. Aku sedar bahawa jodohku terletak di tanganMu. maka, aku hanya perlu berdoa agar dapat mencari pasangan yang dapat membimbingku ke jalanMu. Jika dia adalah jodoh ku, sejauh mana kami berada, pasti akan bertemu juga, Engkau redhailah hubungan kami. tetapi, jika dia bukan jodohku, bantulah aku melupakan dia. sesungguhnya aku tak mampu untuk menanggung sakit di hati. air mata ku sudah banyak jatuh untuk dia. biarlah aku Mencintai dia dalam diam kerana mencintai dalam diam adalah doa ku untuk dia. (=

jogging + herbalife.

starting today i'm taking herbalife as my supplement energy. plus, i want to lose weight. so, i hope by taking herbalife and also jogging everyday will help me. reduce the fats in my body. hahaha. by the way just now when i'm jogging there is football match between UKM and i don't know. hee. i'm trying to looking for him. but i think he did not play today. oh how much i miss to see him play. then, suddenly my friend said that MR M came to stadium. i don't know why. maybe he wanna see football match. or maybe he wanna see me. -__-. *ok that is impossible* okay lah. i want to continue studying. see you later. annyonggg~ =D

MERDEKA....

eh belum lagi lah. merdeka untuk 6hari jek. petang tadi baru abis jawab paper strategik management. dan aku berjaya jawab dengan begitu strategik. haha. =..= okay sekarang nie masa untuk melayan movie+manga+bantal+tilam. yelah dah merdeka kan. haha. tapi esok sambung balik. since have another two more paper. tak pelah malam nie rehat dulu. *padahal dah rehat dari petang lagi* sampai ketemu lagi. byebye. ((=

exam lagi

yes. as u know that this three weeks are exam fever. so, tomorrow is my fourth paper. and as usual also i have not finished reading, studying all that things. =,= since the book in English and question in Malay how i wanna answer it. but i will try. and now i have new hobby. which is jogging. ho yeahh~ i wanna lose weight so need to do some effort to achieved it. wish me luck okay. okay got to go. see you soon. (=

i never understand man

for the whole of my life. i never understand man. even if you don't like a girl. please can you say it in nice words. plus, don't be too good and nice with them. it will make them misunderstanding. seriously i hate you man who hurt my friend. i hate you man who hurt me. i know that you don't like our way but please just tegur lah. jangan lah keluarkan kata2 yang boleh buat sakit hati. ingat tau perempuan ni sangat lemah. once lelaki dah buat macam tu dekat dia. dia akan benci sebenci2nya. but remember, they still care and love you. they still miss the moments both of you. tolonglah. aku memohon kepada kaum2 lelaki dan juga kepada kaum2 perempuan. let say if you don't like a person who like you, please say it in a nice words. jangan la keluarkan kata2 yang xmenyedapkan untuk didengar. huhu. until we meet again. annyongg~

I AM A BIG LIAR

I AM LYING

~ WHEN I SAID I FORGET EVERYTHING. 

~ WHEN I SAID NOTHING FOR WHAT YOU DID

~ WHEN I SAID I'M NOT JEALOUS YOU WITH HER

~ WHEN I SAID I'M NOT MISSING YOU

~ WHEN I SAID I'M NOT HURT

THE BIGGEST LIE THAT I DID WAS.

   I AM LYING WHEN 

I SAID I'M NOT FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU

nak tulis lagi. hahaha

kali ni tulis dalam bahasa Malaysia pulak. okay. lupa nak bagi tahu bahawa masa exam petanng tadi kan. si dia duduk berdekatan dengan saya. tak sangka!! (= kalau dia duduk sebelah saya mesti saya tak boleh nak jawab soalan tadi. tapi masa jawab soalan tadi memang hati berbunga2. suka sangat. biarlah orang kata awak tak hensem ke apa. yang penting hati saya tetap kata awak hensem. saya suka curi pandang awak. bila awak pandang balik kan mesti hati saya 'dup dap dup dap' *lebih2 lak* saya pun jadi perasan yang awak tgh usha saya. huhu. masa dalam dewan tadi saya tercai2 jugak awak. ingat awak duduk jauh dari saya. tapi rupa2nya tak. dekat je. heeee. hepi lah awak. saya jawab soalan tadi dengan hati yang gembira rasa nak menjerit pun ada jugak. nampak tak kegilaan saya kat awak. tapi saya tahu awak takkan sedar semua tu. sebab awak sikit pun tak pandang saya. Y_Y tak pelah. kalau ada jodoh kita adalah. hehe~ =D

be yourself

someone told me that i should be myself. when with him i become someone else. i don't know but he said that. a few months became friend with him, he knew me well. while, i don't know him much. now i'm trying to be myself in front of him. i tried, tried and tried then i'm tired because i don't know how am i. =,=

Exam..

Now i'm 21 years old. but not too old okay. but until now I don' understand why we should have examination. ya I know they want to measure our understanding about the subjects but you know what, the understanding cannot be measured by examination. students will just understand what they read not what they experienced. that is what happen to student now. they just read from the book. and understand nothing. just keep remembering it. then, after exam finished all the remembered things gone too. I admit me myself lack of general knowledge. where as me as International Business student should know all that things happen around me nowadays. when asked by lecturer not all of student can get the right answer. it does not mean exam should be exist. but the way exam be done. which can help student understand it more rather than just remembered for exam day only. 

okbai. (=

p/s : this post is written by student who anti-exam. hahaha.

post yang membosankan

bukan post je. blog i pun bosan jugak weh. aku tau mesti ramai yang tak suka nak baca. sebabnya aku suka mengarut dalam blog nie. kenapa aku suka mengarut kat sini.?? sebabnya inilah antara tempat untuk aku luahkan segala isi hati aku. aku mungkin ter'over' tapi aku tahu ini hak aku. suka hati aku la kan. mungkin dia akan baca blog nie sebab dia ada simpan address blog aku. tapi ada aku kesah. aku tahu dia mungkin akan marah. korang mungkin akan marah. tapi ini apa yang aku rasa. aku tak reti nak bercerita dengan orang lain tentang masalah aku. i will just keep it inside here. tapi kalau lama2 simpan sakit yang teramat sangat akan berlaku. so blog ni lah tempat aku meluahkan segala-galanya. once again, aku nak mintak maaf kalau ada yang tersinggung dengan apa yang aku tulis. aku dah cuba untuk tidak menyakitkan/mengecilkan hati korang tapi kalau korang rasa sebaliknya aku mintak maaf sangat2. just meet me or message me cepat2 kalau ada yang tersinggung. okay. peace no war. ILOVEYOU (=

New life, moving forward..

when i woke up early in this morning. i realize that i should get a new life.
 what happen before, ya maybe i can't forget it. but in a long time i will and i can forget it.
what i need to do just forget what happen. continue with my life.
A better life will come to me soon. Insyaallah.
Tomorrow the final exam start and i haven't read anything. Just waiting for miracle happen to me. haha.
So, for those who taking exam, yesterday, today, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and the day after after tomorrow.

GOOD LUCK ya (^^,)V

*miss Bangkok..wuwuwuw.. Y___Y*

continue....

haha tadi cakap nak study kan. tapi rasa nak tulis lagi pulak nye. aku tulis post nie khas untuk perempuan2 yang mengenali seseorang yang aku kenal nie. kalau anda ada membaca entry2 aku sebelum nie mesti faham. aku nak nasihatkan kepada korang lah. jangan mudah termakan pujuk rayu atau kata2 manis dia. mungkin sikap dia terhadap kita terlampau baik sampai kita sangkakan dia sukakan kita. tapi sebenarnya tak pun. dia cuma akan anggap kita sebagai kawan. maaflah aku bukan nak mengata dia. tapi aku rasa aku patut bagitahu apa yang aku dah alami. ya. mungkin salah aku sendiri sebab TERjatuh hati dengan dia. tapi aku takkan suka dekat dia kalau dia tak telampau baik dengan aku. apa yang aku dapat tengok sekarang nie. what he has done to me he did to other people. aku harap perempuan tu tak salah anggap dengan kebaikan dia. tapi let say if he like that girl im okay with it.

exam..indonesia..

lusa atau hari rabu nie bermulah musim exam. dan aku masih lagi belum membuka buku untuk membaca. report yang seharusnya aku siapkan lebih awal pun tak siap2 lagi sampai sekarang. exam in essay not objective okay. so, silalah mula membaca cik mimi oi..... about the indonesia things pulak. i don't know whether i should go or not. ya i know this is the golden opportunity for me. tapi masih was2 nak pegi. i hope that Allah will give me petunjuk to solve this problem. okay now i want to continue to study. annyong~. (=

Disaat aku mencintaimu =S

when i listened to this song i realised that it reflect myself. ='(



Mengapa kau pergi
Mengapa kau pergi
Di saat aku mulai mencintaimu
Berharap engkau jadi kekasih hatiku
Malah kau pergi jauh dari hidupku

Menyendiri lagi
Menyendiri lagi
Di saat kau tinggalkan diriku pergi
Tak pernah ada yang menghiasi hariku
Di saat aku terbangun dari tidurku

Aku inginkan dirimu
Datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu
Aku sangat mencintai dirimu
Aku inginkan dirimu
Datang dan temui aku
Kan ku katakan padamu
Aku sangat mencinta

kesalahan yang sama lagi

i knew before this i wrote about the same title. but it has different story. these cases happen when i was in first year. and the case repeated but different person. people who don't know me will talk bad about me. but what do i care. it's me. yeah. i'm only a sleeping partner. but if my result not same as you, never call me that. i know that i don't want to admit that i'm wrong which is actually i am. i am sorry. i know even i beg forgiveness from you thousands time you can't forgive me. it is about two weeks i'm away from this problem and this miserable world. somehow i feel calm because i dont need to think about people saying. instead it help me to heal the scar inside. even now or before, when i want to enter the miserable life i will think back about you. you know what. when you are apart from me my life is beautiful. but when you are with me, my life is more beautiful. but i dont know what you feel about me. i know that you understand me. but sorry i never understand you. i don't know what you want. when i'm trying to you ignored it. and now i think i wrote something that will make you mad at me. so i will stop now. just remember that i will never forget about you because you are the one who has come in my life and make me feel happy knowing you even now our relationship not like before. i miss you and i love you my friend. (=